Saturday, November 06, 2004
My days so far
Today was my last day at compassion, not only was it my last attendance as a student but as a member of compassion. I also handed in the departure letter I wrote yesterday and said goodbye to some of the teachers there.
I can't say am excited about it, neither can I say I was looking forward to it. It something I always dreaded doing or hearing about; and when guys started talking about being departed I would always pretend I had something to do and walk out. But the time came yesterday where I couldn't pretend or run away any more and had to face the situation.
Its amazing how I have behaved and reacted to all of this, and impressed by my reaction. I actually thought I would be so down, angry and moody all day but so far am proud of the person I am.
Yesterday Was prize giving day and I can tell you, I was one stressed and tired person. Most of the staff members were not in and I was like the main person in-charge of all the dirty and heavy work and the ones that remained (newspaper guy being one) all they did was just sit there and tell me what I should do and how I should do it. To make matters worse after the even was over, I kept some of the cake (yes there was cake) so I could eat today and guess who comes opens my locker and takes all of it? The administrator (Gosh was I mad).
So far the computers haven't being returned and the hall arranged, I guess they are waiting for me to do that? Well I will leave it like that and come monday, I think I will not be showing my face around here.
Well yesterday was my birthday, and I spent it even like I do most of the times, alone! Its interesting that I even remembered about it this time. I can't believe am getting this old and still don't have a car in my garage, a house on top of the hill and lots of money in my bank account.
Am still fighing emotions about smartkid and I can tell you it hasn't been easy. Most times I tell myself to avoid them but whenever I see them my flesh takes the better part of me and drives me headon towards them. I know it will never work and even if I try telling myself so I don't know why I haven't gotten over them. I have tried hating them, annoying them, looking for excuses to put them out of my head, heart and life but the more I do this, the more it feels like they are getting there even more.
Well tomorrow is on a sunday, don't know what to do after church, don't feel like going to see my nephews and neither do I feel like coming here to the office, to make matters worse I don't have a place to go, and staying home is the very last option and out of the question.
Today was my last day at compassion, not only was it my last attendance as a student but as a member of compassion. I also handed in the departure letter I wrote yesterday and said goodbye to some of the teachers there.
I can't say am excited about it, neither can I say I was looking forward to it. It something I always dreaded doing or hearing about; and when guys started talking about being departed I would always pretend I had something to do and walk out. But the time came yesterday where I couldn't pretend or run away any more and had to face the situation.
Its amazing how I have behaved and reacted to all of this, and impressed by my reaction. I actually thought I would be so down, angry and moody all day but so far am proud of the person I am.
Yesterday Was prize giving day and I can tell you, I was one stressed and tired person. Most of the staff members were not in and I was like the main person in-charge of all the dirty and heavy work and the ones that remained (newspaper guy being one) all they did was just sit there and tell me what I should do and how I should do it. To make matters worse after the even was over, I kept some of the cake (yes there was cake) so I could eat today and guess who comes opens my locker and takes all of it? The administrator (Gosh was I mad).
So far the computers haven't being returned and the hall arranged, I guess they are waiting for me to do that? Well I will leave it like that and come monday, I think I will not be showing my face around here.
Well yesterday was my birthday, and I spent it even like I do most of the times, alone! Its interesting that I even remembered about it this time. I can't believe am getting this old and still don't have a car in my garage, a house on top of the hill and lots of money in my bank account.
Am still fighing emotions about smartkid and I can tell you it hasn't been easy. Most times I tell myself to avoid them but whenever I see them my flesh takes the better part of me and drives me headon towards them. I know it will never work and even if I try telling myself so I don't know why I haven't gotten over them. I have tried hating them, annoying them, looking for excuses to put them out of my head, heart and life but the more I do this, the more it feels like they are getting there even more.
Well tomorrow is on a sunday, don't know what to do after church, don't feel like going to see my nephews and neither do I feel like coming here to the office, to make matters worse I don't have a place to go, and staying home is the very last option and out of the question.
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hi there.u once paid a visit o my bolg and am payin back the favor. i really like your writing and teh photo's
hope i knew who u was-u sounded like u knew me???do u?
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hope i knew who u was-u sounded like u knew me???do u?
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